I apologize to everyone who reads this blog and may be sick of reading about the death of my husband. Sometimes writing my feelings down is very therapeutic and I use this avenue to do that. So...please bear with me.
Tomorrow (Friday November 9th) marks the one year anniversary of Gerrell going to be with Jesus. I really can't believe it has been a year. I didn't know how I would feel about this anniversary and honestly have been dreading this day all year. But...once again God has intervened and blessed me with a very peaceful feeling. Over the past few weeks, I have re-lived Gerrell's last weeks of life over and over and have realized again how merciful God was in this situation. He saw how much Gerrell was suffering and decided there was a much better place for him. I am so thankful for that. Yes...I miss Gerrell very, very much but I wouldn't have wanted him to go on the way he was any longer.
It is so comforting to know Gerrell is in heaven watching over me. My own personal angel! I can't wait to get to heaven to be reunited with him. I have so much to tell him.
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Careangel... praying for you on this toughest anniversary tomorrow. I'm glad you were there Sunday night - know you have sisters surrounding you in prayer this week, and beyond. May His amazing peace and comfort be on you tomorrow, and as you step into being done with 'the firsts'. You have shown courage in walking to this point.
Anniversaries, birthdays and holidays are always hard. I dreaded them so much the first year after our daughter died. What I found was, the anticipation and the time leading up to the actual day was the hardest. And, God always wrapped me up in peace and comfort on the "day". I'm thankful that you found that as well. Praying it stays for you.....and appreciative to our Father for showing you how he provided his care in the past. I think you're doing great. Keep writing.
I admire your writing so much. Praying for you in all of your anniversaries. You have so much of your heart to share and I am glad I get the chance to see it.
Careangel-I found your blog through a friends blog and I was shocked to see who's it was. I recognized your husbands name- you sponsored my husband and I to go on the marriage retreat! What a blessing you are to us- I look forward to reading your posts-Laura
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