Pretty Woman

I have loved the movie "Pretty Woman" since it came out in 1990. I have seen it multiple times and love it more each time I see it. Once again I got sucked into watching it tonight. I think I love it so much because I hoped that same scenario would play out for me as I went through my 20's and 30's--that I would find someone who loved me for the person I was and didn't try and make me into someone I was not. I didn't date much until I met Gerrell in 1999. I was 37 when we met. I think my "standards" were too high as I progressed through my 30's. I had pretty much thought I was destined to be single the rest of my life. But then "my Prince" came along and I was swept away. I fell in love with him because he loved me for who I was. I miss my Prince so much. His love and companionship was the best gift I have ever been given.

God's plan

I have spent a lot to time looking back at my life. It is very clear to me that God definitely had a plan for me and that plan was fulfilled. Now...I only wish I knew what he had planned for me now. This weekend I have felt for the first time since Gerrell died that this house it way too big for me and the yard is too much to care for. I guess I will just keep praying that God will reveal to me what is next. In the meantime, I will try and practice patience--something I am not always good at.

Time flies

I can't believe it has been over a week since my last blog. Time sure flies. I find it hard sometimes to balance activities to keep my busy with quiet time at home. I wonder if all of the activities are just an excuse to not have to be home so much in the silence of being alone. I have always loved spending time at home but home is where are all the memories live also. Sometimes I sit at home and the tears flow freely for no apparent reason. I guess that is all part of the healing process. Maybe it would be good for me to spend more time in the silence.