Forgotten holiday

It makes me sad how Thanksgiving is the forgotten holiday for a lot of people. For so many it is just a day to eat lots, lay around, and prepare to shop on Friday. I am already tired of seeing the Christmas "stuff" around in the stores. Some places have had Christmas displays since before Halloween. I remember as a kid there was no signs of Christmas until after Thanksgiving was over. Thanksgiving was a true holiday with a distinct purpose. I plan on really looking back at the last year and giving thanks to God for all of the blessings he has given me. There are so many! To me that is what Thanksgiving is all about.

Last of the firsts

I apologize to everyone who reads this blog and may be sick of reading about the death of my husband. Sometimes writing my feelings down is very therapeutic and I use this avenue to do that. So...please bear with me.

Tomorrow (Friday November 9th) marks the one year anniversary of Gerrell going to be with Jesus. I really can't believe it has been a year. I didn't know how I would feel about this anniversary and honestly have been dreading this day all year. But...once again God has intervened and blessed me with a very peaceful feeling. Over the past few weeks, I have re-lived Gerrell's last weeks of life over and over and have realized again how merciful God was in this situation. He saw how much Gerrell was suffering and decided there was a much better place for him. I am so thankful for that. Yes...I miss Gerrell very, very much but I wouldn't have wanted him to go on the way he was any longer.

It is so comforting to know Gerrell is in heaven watching over me. My own personal angel! I can't wait to get to heaven to be reunited with him. I have so much to tell him.